Gamble with Desires,

now you're gone. on Wednesday, May 26, 2010, 2:58 PM

I miss those moments, love. Where have you been? Why'd you have to let history repeat itself again? Why do you always go MIA? Why do you have to ill-treat me? Why do you have to make me feel that i don't exist in your life anymore? Why'd you have to neglect me, thrice? What on earth do you want from me? What, you were planning this all along? To hurt me & rip me apart? Well congrats asswipe, you succeeded. You happy now? Thanks so much for everything.

Hello readers!!!

Am currently in school, having OFA lessons but teacher's not teaching as we discussed about our test already. I passed my first OFA test! Hehehe. Btw, i have a BEV practice test tomorrow, and i also have my CA1 BEV test next Wednesday =/ Stress oi. Hmm. Yesterday i worked from 6pm to 11pm, it was pretty tiring cause there were quite a lot of customers. Me no likey actually, but still have to deal with it, argh. &&, I pity Monci. Because when i wanted to leave for work last night, Hairi didnt turn up for his midnight shift, which he was supposed to come and work with Monci. -.- Then, if im not mistaken, she has to work alone. Idiot, cannot come dunno how to inform is it? Asswipe siaa. Anyway, i brought home lots of muffins, cakes and puffs from work. I almost missed the last bus home, and when i arrived back home, i was so damn sleepy, but i had to eat first since i didnt eat my dinner. I made my own dinner at work and i brought back home. (: Hehehe. After eating, i went straight to bed. xD Woke up this morning, my entire body is aching man. Seriously. I feel lyke an old women lah xDDD hahaha. I've been going to Clementi for the past 2days, then head to school with J & C ^^ Hehehe, my 2 cinonehs leyh. Damn gerek lah! Hehehe. Anyway, tomorrow i'm working midnight shift with Elaine! ^^ Saturday i'm working midnight shift as well. Fri is a public hols, and i might be watching movie with Adam. His treat yo! ^^ Hehehe. Well, i think i am done here, am going home at 4pm. Till here then, ciaosxz ~

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cinta? on Sunday, May 23, 2010, 5:42 PM

Love.
What each kiss means:
Kiss on the forehead = We’re cute together.
Kiss on the cheek = We’re friends.
Kiss on the hand = I adore you.
Kiss on the neck = I want you now.
Kiss on the shoulder = You’re perfect.
Kiss on the lips = I love you.

What each gesture means:
Holding hands = We definitely like each other.
Holding you tight, pressed against each other = I want you.
Looking into each other’s eyes = I like you for who you are.
Playing with hair = Let’s fool around.
Arms around the waist = I like you too much to let go.
Laughing while kissing = I am completely comfortable with you.

Advice: If you were thinking about someone while reading this, you’re definitely in love.

There are things we easily forget. People we think are easily replaceable. Relationships we throw away because we think it’s not worth our time & effort. And then there are those that we can’t let go of at all, no matter how bad the memories were. We hang onto them because when all is said and done; when people leave & relationships weaken, memories are all we would ever have.

Hearts never truly break; they just go temporarily out of business for awhile.

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Pyramid on , 5:39 PM

The Original Music Video (: Enjoy ~

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gave up hope =/ on , 3:07 PM

But what am i to do since you have disappeared?

Don't bother coming back, we are through.

HELLO READERS [:
Missed me? Hehehe. Apologies for the late updates, i have been extremely busy you see! Been busy with school and work, plus research for project works. I barely have tyme to socialize around already, what a bore! -.- Anyway, heres some update about whats going in my life lately. First & foremost, my ♥familia in class LC have been very supportive & encouraging towards me, i really wasn't in the mood for anything much and i was afraid of offending others at the same tyme as well. Why moody you may wonder? Because someone in particular ( won't mention the name, you should prolly know who is it already -.- ) disappeared outta my life. Literally disappeared, literally neglected me & i have no idea what the hell happened to hym. No texts/calls, no point being worried sick about hym either because he doesnt really give a shit anyway -.- We had our first & most hurtful argument within this week, concerning his lil' sister, cant recalled what day, afterwhich he practically ignored me because he was mad at me, and then POOF! He disappeared a few days later -.- Pelik kan? Well, what am i supposed to do, but to assume that we are no longer together right? Well, we're through Khai. Get out of my life, dont ever come back or pretend that everythings back to normal already, you are so bothersome. Gave up waiting for you to appear again for the past few days. Felt so dumb lah -.- You made me feel so lost & i am sick and tired of crying till my eyes swell and hurt. You ain't worth it uh. Sighsxz. Althought, deep down inside, somewhere somehow, my heart really literally aches, but what can i do righttttttttt.....? Oh well, no more 020310 lah okay, pfffft.

Anyway, i have been working on Tues, Fri & Sat. Depends when i wanna work xD Hahaha. Worked midnight shift with Monci 2days ago, and it was fun! Hehehe. Gossiped gossiped gossiped. Hahaha. xD I always work with Elaine on Tues. Obviously, shes the best lah xD HAHAHA! Next week, im working on Tues, Thurs & Sat. Work on public hols ( Vesak Day mah -.- ) means 2x pay leyh! ^^ Hehehe. But the disadvantages of working midnight or on Tues also leads to me being extremely lethargic as i dont get enough rest, honestly. I've been so tired lately, which affects my mood, and then affects others also. I no likey, but what to do, i'm like that. Sorry folks =/ Tomorrow im schooling lah, so sianz. Argh. I hate the travelling journey the most i tell you. Sigh. &&, theres been quite a lot of discrimination going on in class which i really abhore. Hmmm. Especially the 2 groupmates of mine, i already have enough probs to handle, they're making things difficlut for me as i get stuck in between the both of them. Always like that. I'm washing my hands off you both lah, argue/fight all you want, none of my business, i dont wanna get involve. I just want good grades & proceed to Poly okay? The End -.- &&, my exams are coming soon already, if i am not mistaken. =/ I barely know my ILT modules lah! -.- Importantly, I can't wait for the hols too. ^-^ I need to spend tyme with my ladies lah! )': Soon kay girls? Apparently, June hols also mean i will be working more. ]: Oh well, for $$$ sake lah xD I am starving now, wanna go search for food. Will update again soon okay? Don't miss me too much xP Lol. Ciaosxz ~

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LClicious xD on Friday, May 21, 2010, 6:06 AM

My Daily Intakes (: Friendship can last for a lifetime, unlike relationships.

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on Monday, May 17, 2010, 11:44 AM

the opposite of love is not hate. its indifference. i have decided, to be ignorant.

so, deal with it, Khairul Anwar. thankyou.

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asswipe xD on Tuesday, May 11, 2010, 6:00 PM

would you regret what you promised? hopefully not, asswipe.

HELLO READERS!!!!!!!!! ^_^
Surprise surprise! xD Surprised i can update today huh? School ended at 3pm, and then i took the train back home with Nab & AbgAlf. Today, we received back our first BEV test paper that we took last Friday, & i am proud to say i got A's for both papers xDDD Hehehe. I ain't boasting or anything, but i just wanna prove that i am capable of doing well when i put in extra effort, and see how i fared? (: Yesyes, i will definitely keep up the good work & ofcourse, i prefer writing out my own notes rather than listening to my CA blabbering about the modules of the subject. It doesn't really help me, especially group work too. But, ofcourse, i know group works are often done in ITE's and all. So oh wells, i have to bear with it and go throught it although i dislike it. Hahaha. I'd rather study independantly because i will force/push myself to absorb more. Nuts huh? I know xD Hahaha. Anyway, i have been on the comp ever since i arrived back home. And apparently, nobody at home, thats why i have the privilege to use the comp with no interruptions/disturbance ^^ Hehe. Oh yah, i haven't really decided whether i should join the Girls West Soccer team. I want to join only when our school move to ITE CCK, since there will be a field there, which is more convenient for me. Rather than i join now, and my trainings are at ITE Bukit Batok -.- So the pemalas lah, aiyoo. Stress lah. The teacher IC called me up this noon and asked me and my 2 other friends who signed up to attend their training tomorrow.. But, school ends at 5pm tomorrow sia -.- I know i can request for early leave, but lyke.. So far lah. If i stay in the West, i wouldn't mind attending lah. But i live in the East okay! Argh, so pissed man. I don't care uh, i will only join after we have moved to ITE CCK. By the way, Ahmad, Congrats on getting the girl of your dream. Must treasure & cherish her hor. (: Goodluck! Well, i think i am done here, have to carry on with my research for my ILT project, will update again okay. Till here, ciaosxz ~

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Miss me? xD on Sunday, May 9, 2010, 3:09 PM

Miss me readers? xD Been busy lah, sorryyyyyyyy xP Hehehe. Anyway, i watched Iron Man 2 with Khai. He treated me to the tickets and the popcorn. I find, he pamper me too much and its not that i dislike it, but i am just afraid i will take advantage of hym lah =/ Hmmm. The movie ratings? 5/5 i tell you! It is an exhilarating movie and it was simply exciting and awesome! Robert Downey JR is just so ... HOT yknow! Argh. Plus plus, Scarlett Johansson was super cool & flexible in the movie, with the fighting moves she got. AWESOME lah. I won't type more, go and watch the movie yourself. It is definitely worth watching to me ^_^ After the movies at Tamp Mall, went off to Tamp One as Khai wanted to go to Times Bookstore. Shocking right, that he wants to go to the bookstore!? I find it weird, because he never reads one, but i do. I thought he wanted to purchase a book for himself, but in the end, he bought the book that i wanted to buy -.- See, i told you, he likes to pamper me so much lah. Aiyoo, *headache i tell you. Already told hym to not buy for me, but he stubborn. I dislike hym spending money on me actually. Hmm. Afterwhich, we went our seperate ways and headed home. Saw Herdawatie ^_^ Finally, i get to see her. Hehe. Then, walked further down at Tamp Inter, and bumped into Ms Raine. xD Hahaha. Bused home, used the comp for project for about 2hours, had dinner and then got ready for midnight shift.

Bused to work at 9pm, worked with Monci. Shes alright lah. Shes quite hostile but shes also quite nice & friendly lah xD Worked till 10am yknow. Very very tired i tell you! At 4am plus, i became extremely sleepy, i couldn't keep my eyes open siaa. However, customers began streaming in at about 5:30am, then i began to be active at work and i was awake all over again. After work, bused home & rested for about 3-4hours only, then woke up to watch tv -___________- Yeahs yeahs, im weird. Hahaha. I couldn't sleep well cause it was so humid lah. Sighsxz. Meera came over my house, i got ready & off we went to Tamp. Went to food culture, then to CBTL, thanks Meera for the treat. Bused back to P.Ris area, meet Zamir, bought ciggies for me with Meera's money. Thanks again Meera, i owe you! xP Slacked for awhile, then arrived home before 9pm. Yadayada, then off to bed. Today, woke up early in the morning, went to church with parents and adekk -__________- Another suffering period. Hahaha. Joking joking, cannot offend my Lord. (: Had Lunch at Eastpoint, parents sent us home, then i have been on the comp ever since xD Hahaha. Doing research for my project okay. Am really doing my work hor! And, i am almost done researching. Tassya's over at my place, gotta go accompany her to go smoke, so i guess i am done here. Am gonna meeet Adam later on as well, regarding my phone xD Will update again whenever okay? Don't miss me too much now xD Ciaosxz ~

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iron man 2 ^^ on Wednesday, May 5, 2010, 7:44 PM

Monday : School > Home
Tuesday : School > Tamp Inter > Love's home > Met his Mum & siblings > Home
Today : School > Home

Am gonna watch Iron Man 2 with Love this Friday. Yippppeeeeeeeeee! ^_^
Till here then, will have a proper update soon. Ciaosxz ~

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Never Let You Go on Sunday, May 2, 2010, 2:05 PM

Why on earth is this young, Canadian pop male artiste so darn adorable & hot!? Give me a second while i melt..... xPPPPP

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Happy 2nd only? xD on , 1:26 PM

Happy 2nd Baby! I know we have only been together for 2months, but it is more than enough for me to love you even more with each day passing by. I admit, i've been feeling neglected by you because i feel you don't spend enough tyme with me. However, i know deep down, everything you do is for me. I don't want you to do everything that you are doing currently for me, i want you to spare a thought for yourself also. I am looking forward to the months ahead for us, and ofcourse, the years to come as well. I can assure you, no matter what happens, i will choose to be with you & no other will be able to replace you in my heart. I hope the both of us will look at things in the optimistic side & everything will be okay, alright love? Don't think about our past no more, it will keep bringing you down. Cheer up love. I promise you, everything will be alright and i will be there for you whenever you need me okay? Baby, i've missed you. We'll meet up soon yeahs? Patience (: I love you Khai ^_^

Hello readers (:
Am gonna meet AbgAlf at P.Ris MRT station at 3:20pm, then head to Bugis MRT station to meet Ahmad & Lya. We're gonna do our ILT project at the National Library. Nab won't be able to join us as shes down with a heavy fever. Yat will be joining us late as he has soccer training, so we understand understood uh xD As for me, my rashes sorta subsided already. I need to contribute in this project, if not i will feel guilty uh. Hmmm. Anyway, i won't be able to update during weekdays as i am always ending school very late. Arthur is so frus with me, because he is dying to meet up with me but then i always end school late. ): I feel so bad, i feel like i am not a good bestf towards hym. Sighsxz. Obviously, i miss hym as much as he misses me, but i am so effing busy with the damn school schedule & then work also. I no likey also i have no choice, still must go through all these. So, oh wells, endure lor xD Went to church just now, & as usual, no offence, i find it kinda boring lah =/ Oppps, sorry. However, i did absorb what the pastor talked about lah. Hahaha. Afterwhich, went off to have lunch with parents & adekk. Now, i am back home. Abg still asleep, adekk went out -__________- He like very daring lorr, go out also no need to inform my parents one. Last tyme, when i was at hys age, i do not even dare to do that siaa. :D Well, i think i am done here, if not i will continue blabbering nonsense xD till here then, ciaosxz ~

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Late update =/ on Saturday, May 1, 2010, 2:20 PM

My Class ; LC (:

2 Days, 1 Night Camp at the Singapore Discovery Centre. Fond Memories xD

With our OFA & CFB teacher, Ms Yani (:

Our Class 2nd Mummy xD ( first is our CA lah, ofcourse, hehe )

WOW, this blog is filled with lots of dust xD Apologies readers for not updating my bloggie for almost 2-3 weeks. My home computer is down, no internet because Daddy didn't pay the bills or something. Thus, there was a lack of updates. Well, i am not gonna update about what i did the past 2-3 weeks, because it might prolly be a really very long post & i don't wanna be long winded. Besides, i have short term memory, so i cannot remember much xD Right now, i am using the comp at home with the help of my Dad's Wireless thingy called Vodafone :D Lols. Tyme flies by really fast huh? Its already May yknow! My first exams will be at the end of May, if i'm not mistaken. There are tons of project work given recently, & my ILT group mates really aren't working out. Having some conflicts here & there because of bad attitude problems & whatever not. Not gonna mention the names here, i don't wanna be so mean =/ See those pictures up there? Yupps, they are my new found friends. They're my classmates. Obviously, i adore them & each & everyone of them are really special in their own ways. (: I have like my gossip Mama/joker ; Wahidah. I have my brother/buddy/pal ; Ahmad. I have my very own laughing cliques ; Seri, Syaz, Nab, Lenny. My camwhoring clique ; Hidaya, Wani, Fidi. && not forgetting, our 3 annoying/foolish/crappy/entertaining musketeers ; Alfian, Ahmad & Yat. However, no other could ever replace my ladies, my bestfriends ; Tassya, Arthur & Fares ^^ I miss them loads i tell you! Hopefully i can make it for the 5n1 outing next Sunday. Anyways, i had a 2days1night camp the past 2days. It was fun yet horrible -_________- I especially abhore the showering tyme on the first night.. The annoying OGL's only give us 5mins of showering tyme in a tiny shower cubicle. There were like thousands of girls lah, so i understand why we only had 5mins of showering tyme. But it was soooooo.. argh!! I also dont know how to explain lah. Just plain stupid. Yesterday, i began to have rashes. See lahhhhhhhh. Improper yet unhygienice bathing tyme.. Leads to me having rashes! -.- Thats why, i am so pissed. Sighsxz. Tomorrow, i have to meet up with my ILT group mates to do our project work, but my face like strawberry, macam maner nak kluar? -________- Babs taws. KNNCCB. Hmmm. Thankyou Mama Ida for your medicine & cream, plus your deep concern for me. You're sucha great Mama lah, hahahahahaha! xD Its true okay, hehe. Well, i think i am done here. Will update again whenever possible yeahs. But, obviously i won't be updating so often already lah. Till here then, ciaosxz ~

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