selfish on Tuesday, March 2, 2010, 11:15 AM
Being selfish is defined as : devoted to or caring only for oneself ; concerned primarilywith one's own interests, benefits, welfare .. etc. regardless of others.
What foolish human hearts we have. We give the best of ourselves, to individuals who don't know any better. When it comes to the matters of the heart, we must take a step back & look at the emotions that are at hand. Forget about what people want for you, what your friends want for you.. & remember what you want & deserve. Love is definitely a luxury & everyone wants it, yearns for it, & may even hurt people for it, but not everyone deserves it. You must willingly give one heart to receive another, & sometymes you have to play the game wisely if you ever want to come out with the prize ; someone genuine. You must protect your heart, for everything flows from it. Don't willingly pass it around to whomever asks for it, you must give that part of yourself to individuals who truly deserves to hold a part of you that they can easily break, but love you enough to never consider breaking it. Always be selfish with your heart. Not everyone deserves it.. Not everyone deserves you.
After reading this from a source i found in one of the tumblr blogs, i truly understand already. It definitely is a good advice for me. It definitely will help me in whatever state i get into. I hope this will help the other girls, because it seriously is very meaningful & it will definitely help you girls. I will decide when to be selfish with my heart ofcourse, but at this very moment, it has already belonged to someone special. I have my reasons for giving my heart to this someone special. I love someone who makes me feel safe, someone who makes me feel that whats inside of me is worth a second glance, someone who has never given up on me, someone who show his entire interest in me, someone who would go out of their way to show me that i am special, someone who would always pull when i push away.. (': i've never told you this before, but i genuinely appreciate your determination for me, Khai (: i thank you for everything you've done for me, everything that you've sacrificed for me for the past 2 years. lets take baby steps together okay, & see how everything goes. everything would be alright, trust me (': well readers, i think i am done here, i gotta go get ready now. am meeting Khai for our movie date soon, ciaosxz ~
