I'm not scolding you, just stating facts. on Sunday, January 31, 2010, 11:46 AM
27Jan'09 : Officially Over, Goodbye.I have nothing much to say about us, its always the same thing. I won't be coming back anymore, because there won't be any improvement anyway, things will never be the same as the beginning either. Coming back will be back to square one, & i no longer want that. It's not that you cannot give me happiness, it's not you, it's me. I'm too demanding, perhaps i expect too much from you. I wanted the old you, but you cannot give me that. I tried being ignorant, but i can't. & finally, i emotionally give up, for real. I don't want to come back to the past & keep hurting myself, keep making myself suffer. Plus, i don't want to be taken advantage of just because i'm soft hearted. I've given you so many chances, no wait, too many chances but you didn't use any of them wisely. You keep telling me you love me, but you don't prove it with your actions. I’ve put my only faith on you. I know everybody change. But what matters is if you change for the better or for the worse. Guess you chose to become worse huh? You weren’t the guy I once knew. You’ve become so unreal, so unlike yourself. So, am I forced to adapt to the new you? I am not going to force myself, because i would not be happy that way. Being the man of the relationship, it means you have the balls to do your best to hold on to a relationship. Be it giving in when feuds occur, making minor sacrifices or randomly remind your girlfriend how much you love them. So drop your pride and work on the action. I gave you all the tyme to mend everything. Things got worst don't you think? The only person you think about now is yourself, not me. Now you put your ego before me and expect everything to fall into place just for you. Let me bring you back to reality, not everything will go your way. I’d hate to be the girl that drags you down and be a burden and hinders the way you want to live your life. It’s your choice now because I’ve had enough tolerating you. Besides, i know i give you too many problems & you don't have the energy & mood to handle me. If thats the case, we are better off alone. Goodbye.
HELLO READERS.
Well, it is officially over. I have finally learn to let go. I feel so much more free, so much more relieved. I feel i shouldn't keep going back to the past since it will never improve, therefore, moving forward is the only way out (: I shouldn't be torturing myself, now i feel so much more contented ^^ I have friends who will help me to cmpletely let go & not come back again, because coming back will lead me back to square one, as mentioned above. Thankyou Tassya & Zab (: Ofcourse, Zam as well ^^ He doesn't really know hes helping me, but to me, he is of a great help already & it is more than enough. I am sure, i have friends, especially my ladies & perhaps Arthur & Fares, who would be happy for me upon hearing this news. They want the best for me, i knw that eventhough they don't really say it to me, & i love them loadsxz ~ Anyway, i am suppose to be working at wild wild wet like.. Now? :DD But, i am not feeling that well, so i told my manager and he helped me get a replacement. (: Thankyou Adrian. &&, yesterday's work was simply AWESOME. Working with my 2 friends, Tassya & Haniz was 'Simply The Best' ( jokes :D ) & i would love to work with them again. Plus, having James as the manager for our shift was great as well. Hes so friendly, so gerekk, so outgoing & so cute :DDD Plus, Fadhli, ofcourse.... -.- hahaha! He was alright, very helpful & funny. Overall, work yesterday was a blast ^^ With Zam, it'll be better ofcourse ;D I will be staying home today to rot, Tues, Wed, Thurs & Fri i would be working morning shift, so wont be updating then. On Saturday, i might be attending another orientation training. On Sunday, i might be having a friendly match. Hopefully i can make it for the match, its been so long since i saw my SP's teammates, miss them loadsxz lah :D Well, i think i am done here, not really feeling so well, need to rest. Till here then, ciaosxz ~
