Confusing. on Monday, December 21, 2009, 11:23 AM
I'm Afraid To Admit That I'm In Love With You But I Can't Forget
Your Eyes & I Can't Stop Feeling Your Lips ; Your Words Keep Echoing
In My Head & You Always Make Me Weak When You're Around Me.
I Don't Want To Mean It When I Say " I Love You. ", But I Can't Help It.
Hey readers (:
Saturday i worked mascoting with JR, so glad he didnt bail out. In fact, i love working mascot with hym way more than with Melvyn! Hes sucha a happy-go-lucky person, & eventhough he is pretty annoying & irritating with hys child like behaviour, he still manages to cheer me up even when i have my moodswings that day. Haha! I cannot wait to partner with hym for mascot on Christmas Day again! Hehe. After work that day, i went to meet BbyAmira, together with BbyAyin. The three of us went to KFC & had our dinner, afterwhich we all went home. Yesterday, work was torturing. The weather was simply killing me, burning my eyes & skin away. I already didnt sleep well on Saturday night, & so, my eyes were hurting at work yesterday. I was squinting my eyes throughout my work, & i was really tired & bored to death man :D What was worse was that, some customers just get on my nerves, but i still have to be all friendly & speak politely towards them, lest they go make some petty complaints, pffft. After work, i wnt off to shower & i walked home alone (: Today, i would be going out with my Aunt, Cuzzies & younger brother, Darren, for lunch & bowling at about 1pm or so like that. Currently waiting for Darren to come home from hys soccer training, then would go bathe & get ready. Oh yah, during work yesterday, suddenly i have some rash thing going on, on my upper arms. It itches man, but i am trying my best to not to scratch it because i dont want it to get worse. I worked for foam pit yesterday, i am not sure what caused the rash, the scorching weather or the foam? :DD Doesnt matter. My Aunt brought me to see a skin specialist, i have to attend another appointment tomorrow, if i'm not mistaken. I didnt manage to attend the B girls friendly match just now, because of my appoinment. I really miss them so much ): DAMN, i am so disheartened that i have to leave the team youknow. Argh. Thinking about it will ruin my mood lah, sighh. Nevermind, this is life :D Anyway, i gotta go bathe already, before Darren gets home. Till here then, ciaozxs ~
I am pretty much confused, why you can be extremely sweet yet nice yet gentle towards me, & you would be the best boyf i would wish for. However, you can have an extremely mean yet heck care yet atrocious attitude towards me, like the very next minute.. Which would scare the hell out of me & make my inner feelings crumble & all i could do is sit silently on my bed, & cry cry cry till my eyes turn puffy & swollen, which would then satisfy my hatred feeling. & instead of hating you, i hate myself even more than words can ever describe.
