Hard as Rock, Soft as Fur on Thursday, December 31, 2009, 12:34 PM
Ignorance on , 11:27 AM
I'm Better Off Alone & You Are Better Off Without Me.I Should Prolly Leave, If It Makes You Happy.
The End.
Remix of 2009 on Wednesday, December 30, 2009, 5:43 PM
Female Day, They're All AWESOME. on , 4:14 PM
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Alesha Dixon, i love her hair!! :D
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The Veronicas (: Gorgeous twins.
The Kardashian Sisters ( They Have An Awesome Reality Show! )
Jordyn Taylor, her songs are AWESOME. ^^
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Shes Voluptuous, not FAT. I Love Beyonce (:
Kelly Rowland, Shes Just As Gorgeous (:
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Full Of Craps on , 1:02 PM
Hello CupcakesI'm in a pretty good mood, RIGHT NOW. &&, i guess it was because i get to meet up with Love yesterday, though we onlyy see each other for about 2hours -.- Pathetic much? Yeahs, but it doesnt matter, the tyme spent with with hym yesterday was pretty worthwhile, because i get to see hym mahh :P &&, he just never fails to brighten my day, but onlyy when i am with hym, physically :DD We were supposed to catch Alvin & The Chipmunks 2 at Century Square, but when i got there earlier than hym, i saw the cinema's queue line, & goodness, it was extremely longgggggggg i tell you! Hahaha. I informed Love, & in the end, we cabbed to Pasir Ris Park to just take a stroll & update each other about whats happening & stuff. (: We went from one spot to another because we couldn't find the perfect spot. Hahaha. After about 2hours, we went off from PRP. We took a cab, again, Love drop me off at my place & he went off to the Tamp gym. Last night, i had a good conversation with 'Uncle' JR for 3 whole hours. :DD He really perked up my mood, made me laughed so much. We talked about work, then talk about our personal life. Was great having my consultation with hym, hahahaha! :DD Well, i realise that, after i get to see Love, i am extremely over the moon. I will feel so satisfied, so much more contented. However, whenever i never get to see hym for a VERY LONGG tyme, that is when i begin to assume a lot, begin to become pessimistic, become sensitive & paranoid. What do you expect? I'm a female, we girls have a much more overwhelming feeling than guys. But, i strongly feel that all the guys will never understand this part of us female. Do you guys really think we want to be paranoid & sensitive?? Its like, we have no other choice, we cannot help it. Sighhhh.
'Uncle' JR also shared with me that females experiences 20 days of moodswings ( actually me onlyy -.- ). The pre-moodswing, & the post-moodswing. At that tyme of the month, for 7days, we girls won't have our moodswings. But 10days before our period, we will get moody. &&, the following 10days after our period, we will be moody as well. So total, its 20days of moodswings. Cool huh? :D I wonder why we females have to go through this. I despise moodswings, but i swear i cannot help it. Oh well, whatever. Anyway, tomorrow is New Year's Eve. Am spending SOME tyme with Love again tomorrow. At night, he's going out with hys friends to celebrate. Pffft. Seriously, so much for wanting to spend the entire week with me. Its always superficial, so unbelievable, so bullshit. -.- He'd better give hys Saturday to me or i swear i will throw a big tantrum. Yeahs, 2010 resolution? I have loads, all up in my mind, i ain't gonna type it out here & share it with anyone. HAHAHA. Apologies. Anyway, the O level results are nearing, & i don't feel the pressure or nerves yet. Hmmm, perhaps the day before the results, i will start to have my nerves. I need to get into Poly, please God, please! ): I do not want to end up in ITE maaaaaan. Hmmm. Anyway, at the end of this post, i am all moody again. Why? Because of one moron. I am done here, wanna play my fb games & find other things to do, till here then, ciaosxz ~
f off on Tuesday, December 29, 2009, 11:50 AM
You Don't Say Words With Sincerity Already, You Say 'Nice' WordsJust To Appease Me. As The Saying Goes, Action Speak Louder Than
Words. You Don't Use Action Like How You Did Before, You Use
Words But You Never Seem To Meant Them Anyway. I Give Up,
Screw It. Do What You Wanna Do, I Don't Want To Bother Already.
i hate words.
leave me alone. on Monday, December 28, 2009, 4:26 PM
IT'S LIKE YOU NEVER EVEN EXIST IN MY LIFE ANYMORE.WHY THE HELL SHOULD I HOLD ON OR CARRY ON..?
DON'T MAKE ME SAY IT, DON'T MAKE ME SAY IT,
DON'T MAKE ME SAY IT, DON'T MAKE ME SAY IT..
perhaps i need a break. i hate you, period.
quit playing games with my heart on , 2:25 PM
You Are Practically Letting Me Down Every Second, Throwing Me Away,Chucking Me Aside, Use Me As If I Am Your Personal Doll, Avoiding Me
& You Don't Need Or Want Me Anymore. I'm Sick & Tired Of Games..
Maybe I Should Leave. I Feel So Unappreciated. I Should Not Be A Burden
In Your Life Any Further, I Should Leave. I Ought To Leave. I Want To...
But Damn, I'm A Fool. I Just Can't Do It. Screw It.
Hello readers..
I have been using the comp since 11:30am, & i am gonna carry on using it till perhaps, 7pm? Yeahs, i am rotting at home right now. The weather is so cooling, i feel like dozing off into dreamland. Sorry, i don't really have the mood today.. I'm so fuckin pissed, annoyed & upset. Heartbroken, devastated. You name it, i feel exactly that way kay. Pffft, whatever. Imma a fucking loser, so screw it. Tomorrow i prolly am meeting Love, catching Alvin & The Chipmunks 2. I ought to pay myself, i don't want you to keep paying everything for me. Will be spending don't know how many hours with hym onlyy. Yeahs, hes extorting physical attacks from me ( wonder whats that? :D secret. ) Hahahaha. Few hours is never enough for me. I suppose you just want to satisfy my need of seeing you, for few hours ( 2-3 hours maybe? ) onlyy, then fuck off & do your own thing huh? -.- Whatever lahh. So much for wanting to spend tyme with me for this week, so much for taking leave to spend tyme with me. Bullshit, all bullshit. Oh yeahs, 2010 is nearing, & i can't wait for it *rolls eyes*! Fuck 2010, like i give a damn. Its just another new year, another new phase in life, another new year to learn & experience new things, another year to meet new people, another year to go through bullshits & 'excitements'. Pffft, -.- lame shit. Oh yeah, also, CONGRATS TO SEZAIRI SEZALI !! You rawkk man! Although Sylvia should have won the title & be the first female S'pore idol, but its alright, atleast she would definitely still be in the music industry. Hopefully Tabitha gets to work in the music industry as well, & i feel that she could even be a host youknow :DDD &&, Sezairi is actually sooooooooo much better than Hady Mirza ( my opinion okay :D ). Sezairi is almost the same as Taufik, both super HOTHOTHOT! :DDD Okay, i am done here, wanna carry on with my fb games. Till here, ciaosxz ~
planning on Sunday, December 27, 2009, 12:07 PM
I MISS YOU SO MUCH AZRI FAIQ! )':Happy 11th My Dearest (: Thankyou for everything you have done for me.
For everything you sacrificed for me. For the numerous tymes you tried
your best to bring me up when i am extremely down. & Most of all, thankyou
for loving me & giving me countless chances. I love you so much, so very much
& no amount of words can ever describe how deep my feelings are for you. (':
Hello Readers! (:
Love is finally back, phew! I feel so much more at ease now that hes back in S'pore. Anyway, yesterday, reported for work at 2pm, together with JR. && Know what? Fazli, Sunny & Hafiz didnt turn up for work as scheduled. They were supposed to work for the Wet & Live event, Fazli was excuse as he was sick. But the other 2 simply disappeared & couldnt be contacted at all. So, what happened since they have a shortage of workers? JR couldnt work Mascoting with me, & he had to help out for the Wet & Live event. So, that leaves me to work by myself, AGAIN! Argghh. I was so pissed off inside, because i would rather have a companion to work with than working alone. So basically, i was sulking & i felt moody. Before i started work, ate otah with JR at the locker room & he had to cheer me up, which he did, but slightly onlyy. :D Afterwhich, he had to start hys work while i went to put on my costume & all. As it was pouring, i didnt get to walk around much in the first half of my job at Escape. I practically slacked in the GR office, because there wasn't much children at Escape anyway. I even gossiped with Charlotte & Sarah, & they were pretty hilarious. Shouldn't mention what we gossiped about, because anybody could get offended :D At 4:15pm, i headed back to WWW, had my break. JR was so kind to me, went to buy Macs for me, & Shi Min. Had my break in the office, then i went back to work. Walked around WWW, there were more kids around, & the rain stopped already, so yeahs, i had to top up the candy atleast thrice :DD Ended my mascot work at 6:30pm, then i had to stay on till about 10pm, helping out for the Wet & Live event. Actually, i ended up helping nothing, :DD Anyway, during the event, JR & i went to have our dinner at Subway. He treated me to the food, ofcouse. :DD Since he promised me, *thankyou very much, 'Uncle' JR! :D* We even made a pinky promise, shouldnt type out what we promised, or else i would get laughed at, hahaha. Anyway, after eating, i slacked, then went off to home with Zamir & Aizad at 10pm. It was a pretty tiring day for me yesterday, so after washing up & done texting with Love, i went off to dreamland :D Today, i won't be doing much, will be staying home all day. Oh yah, there will be Poly open houses from 7Jan to 9Jan, & i want to go to NYP, NP & RP. I received so many poly mails from all poly's, except RP's. I don't understand why people look down on RP youknow, i love that school, though its like the other end of my home :D These are the courses that i want from the different poly's
- Ngee Ann Poly - Veterinary Bioscience (NEW!)
- Ngee Ann Poly - Early Childhood Education ( 15points )
- Nanyang Poly - Social Sciences ( Social Work ) (NEW!)
- Nanyang Poly - Sports & Wellness Management ( 16points )
- Republic Poly - Sports & Exercise Sciences ( 26points )
- Republic Poly - Health Management & Promotion ( 26points )
6 CHOICES, I know these courses aren't really popular or whatever, but they just catches my attenion lah :DD Anyway, i wanna go have my lunch before carrying on playing with my fb games, till here then, ciaosxz ~
miss youuuuuuuuuuuuuu on Saturday, December 26, 2009, 11:43 AM
Retrieved From Hudaa's Blog :
Love her.
Love her unconditionally because she needs you. Love her faithfully because she trusts you. Don’t make promises you can’t keep, make her feel special and worth it. Love her despite her mistakes, love her even if she isn’t perfect, even if she isn’t the most beautiful girl in the whole world.
Because she’s worth it, because every tear she cries makes your heart melt. Because you know that you can’t take not talking to her, not being with her, the thought of losing her.
So love her.
& love her with all your heart. Make her feel she’s worth everything, because when you love her that much.. she is worth everything. You won’t think twice about giving her all you can. So love her with all that you’ve got. Because if sheis the one. Then don’t ever let her go.
Hello readers. I'm going to go get prepared for work already. Not sure if i am meeting JR first, hes still asleep -.- pffft. Hahaha. Anyway, i will be staying up till 11pm or maybe earlier, not so sure yet. Cause might be waiting up for Zamir. Hopefully JR make good hys word also & treats me. I don't want KFC already, i want Subway. Hehehe. Yumyum. &&, Love hasn't texted me yet. Guess hes not back in Singapore yet, pffft. Nevermind, i will keep waiting, keep hoping, keep wishing. I swear i miss hym till i can go nuts. Argh. Patience, endurance *gives a fake smile* Hahaha. Anyway, i am done here, ciaosxz ~
fuck off. on Friday, December 25, 2009, 11:56 AM
I'm Afraid That When I Finally Find Love, I Will Probably Ruin ItDue To My Numerous Insecurities That I Tend To Have, Like Now.
I Need You To Know, I Miss You ; I Miss You So Bad..
If You Love Me, Why Don't You Prove It!? )':
Love is away from Singapore since 6am already, now i am left here, without anyone special to text with. JR just asked me to go have breakfast with hym at the otah stall before reporting for work, so yeahs, i wanna go get ready to meet hym up & have breakfast with hym. Love is gone & i swear i feel like there is a big part of me which is missing, seriously. I feel like exploding, exploding into tears also possible. I'm so lost without Love. I know i know, he will be back tomorrow but dont know what tyme, but still .... Sigh. Unexplainable lah. Since Love is away, i would be switching off my cellphone. Its meaningless to leave it on, no purpose because he wont be texting me but enjoying hys holiday away. He probably would not even miss or think bout me, pfffft. Screw it. Whatever it is, my cellphone would be switched off. I will on a few tymes, so yeahs. Sorry. Those who want to get through me............. Find a way, somehow lah. Kay ciaosxz ~
I WANT TO GO SOMEPLACE WHERE NOBODY KNOWS ME :@@
dont leave on Thursday, December 24, 2009, 6:17 PM
You Are The Fucking Best I Ever Had.I Won't Throw You Away, Even If You Are Gonna Do So.
No Matter How Much You Hurt Me, No Matter How Much I Suffer,
I Still Wanna Be That Fool & Stick Around With & For You.
Because I Still Totally Feel I Found My True Romeo.
&&, That Is None Other Than You, A.F <3
To Hell With What Others Say, Because I Hurt You First,
So Now I Deserved This. Yeahs, I Am A Total Fool. Tyvm.
AWAY ): on , 12:39 PM
Love is busy with duty today ): && the following 2days, he will be away from S'pore. Took 2weeks leave, but he can onlyy end up spending tyme with me next week. How sad & pathetic ): Knowing that he will be busy/away for the next 3days, just tortures me. Am gonna be extremely bored to death & lonely -.- Dammit. Doesnt matter, i have a Christmas Dinner to attend to tonight at my Grams place. My younger cuzzies will help me occupy my mind instead of thinking too much about Love.. For the next 2days , i will be working mascoting with JR. I know for sure he will definitely cheer me up with hys plain stupidity & lame jokes [': I cannot wait to work with hym, atleast he will prevent my moodswings from appearing :D Furthermore, he promised to treat me to an X'mas dinner, perhaps on Saturday, when i am waiting up for Zamir till 11pm. I have about 4hours or so to have my KFC meal treat, then go back home with Zamir, since he lives nearby. :D Anyway, i want to find something to do, to occupy my mind before i start thinking negative & become paranoid for no reason. I hate it that Love is always busy, i know he has no choice, but do i always have to understand hym & give in to hym, when he does not do the same for me?? This 2 questions always pops up in my mind which then will make me weep away for no fucking reason youknow. I'm so depressed, damn ]:{ Whatever, i am done here. Will update whenever lah kay, ciaosxz ~
HAPPY X'MAS DAY EVERYONE!
work work work on Wednesday, December 23, 2009, 6:31 PM
You Are Too Far Out Of Reach, You Seem To Have Disappeared.
Hello readers (:
Yesterday went to polyclinic with my Aunt, the doctor diagnosed me with mild eczima problem. I suppose not many people ( maybe not at all :D ) know what problem is this. The doctor said its a disease -.- hahaha, jokes. Actually, its kind of normal for people to get this problem, but mine isn't that bad as its only on my arms and palms, so he said its a mild disease. All he prescribe me was a jar of aqeous cream, which is for dry skin as i have this sickening problem, & he gave me 2 tubes of eczima cream thing. After the doctors visit, my Aunt went to buy food for me from Tenderbest, Mmmm.. Yumyum! :DD Went to my grams place, ate the food that Aunt bought for me. About 2hours later, i ate dinner at my grams place. Everytyme, during hols i admit i eat alot, but this tyme, i never get to exercise as much as i used to because i am no longer part of the school team ( so called ) , so i never went to attend training. Besides, i have been busy & tired because of work, really. I wish i could come down to train with my Ex teammates, but i am afraid they will think i am being an extra & i should not come at all -.- I know the girls wouldn't say that about me, but i should butt out of the team as i would not be around next year anymore. If i still train with them, it will lead to an even more unbearable feeling for me to leave the school & the team ( yeahs, i went to sec5 was greatly because of the team okay, & i am still glad & proud we achieved a 2nd place (: ). Anyway, after the dinner, i went home with Darren, my younger brother. He was stressd up because he got into Greenview Sec -.- He actually wanted to, but he changed hys mind, he wanted to enter Siglap. Gave Mrs Goh a call last night, & he immediately could actually come to Siglap.
BUT! He changed hys mind again this morning -.- He wants to go Greenview, & he will be a normal tech student there. Gosh, hopefully his attitude don't get worse & hopefully he does not get more mean & rude & start behaving like hes older than everybody else -.- because i would hate that. Pffft. Anyway, i reported for work at 10:30am this morning. Working with ShiMin, but youknow what? She was late for about 1hour15mins, & during that 1hour15mins, i had to do the birthday party decorations alone. &&, people think it is easy to organize & set up everything, but it is not as easy as you all think, i tell you! Handling it alone is super tough. Furthermore, the sunny weather was killing me & the sun was practically glaring at my eyes! Argh. When she arrived at 11:45am, she helped me out alitte, then the guest arrived. Served the food & all, after that we played games with the birthday girl & her friends. The party ended at about 3:30pm, then we cleared the decorations. Went to shower & the both of us went home. So you see, i am extremely tired right now, my legs are aching. Tomorrow i have X'mas Dinner at my Grams place, cant wait to see what pressie's i get from my relatives! Thats the onlyy exciting part for me, i ain't particularly up for the food :DD &&, i should prolly refrain or perhaps, stop smoking so much. JR says i am killing myself too fast as i am shortening my life span, but what the hell!? Thats kinda like, what i'm trying to do, lols! :DD jokes. Hahaha. I get breathing difficulty whenever i smoke & i cannot think properly either, furthermore, i am destroying my stamina actually. Oh well, its so difficult for me so maybe i ought to stop, soooooooon. :D I'm done here, will update again, till here, ciaozxs ~
Thankyou Nadee for your advice, really appreciate it. But letting go just like that, is not as easy as it sounds or as it is said. There needs to have a lot more courage, & i doubt i have that courage anytyme yet. I really will reconsider what you advised me about, but i still need to think about it. Maybe i need tyme, i dont know? I just cant bear to let go, sigh. Damn, so confusing yet depressing. Hmmm, oh well. If he ends up dumping me, i will really concede defeat, i will accept it. Wont force hym to stick around when he doesnt want me anymore right? in the meantyme, i really dont want to let go. )':
inferior. on Tuesday, December 22, 2009, 12:54 PM
Less text messages. No more phone calls or taking the initiative to call, unlike before.The sudden reminders of your love for me. No more convincing assurances. No more
taking the initiative to assure me so as to prevent me from thinking negative or
become paranoid/oversensitive, unlike before. More battery going dead as a reason
so as to avoid talking to me. Whining about being tired every night so as to avoid
speaking to me. Less tyme spent together which leads to us drfting apart. Less tyme
seeing or meeting one another ( undertandable i suppose ). No more sweet, true &
sincere words. Which basically means no assurance. The mean & heck care attitude.
The attitude that always make me think i am always to blame. The egoistic & never
want to lose character. The 360 changes. Theres plenty more, but i will stop here.
All these just leads to me thinking you have someone else, do youknow that?
You think i like posting negative stuff about you? NO. I never turn to anyone because
i do not want to make other people lives as contradicting as mine, i would rather go
through it alone. Therefore, i sit & cry alone in my bedroom too. The only word you
keep repeating to me is "Sorry." Do you really ever mean it? If yes, you wouldn't keep
making me cry every single night because of your mean & nasty & unnecessary
behaviour. You make me weak, you make me feel inferior, you make feel small. But,
don't youknow, that i am still stupid enough, to want to love you & stick by you?
You are whom i want, whom i need. No matter how mean you are, i still want to stick
by you. Why!? Because, i love you too much. & you will never understand how much
i am going through & am suffering because of just your attitude. You will never
understand what true love really means, i am done here.
Gotta get ready now, got a doctor appointment at 2:15pm. Till here, ciaozxs ~
Confusing. on Monday, December 21, 2009, 11:23 AM
I'm Afraid To Admit That I'm In Love With You But I Can't Forget
Your Eyes & I Can't Stop Feeling Your Lips ; Your Words Keep Echoing
In My Head & You Always Make Me Weak When You're Around Me.
I Don't Want To Mean It When I Say " I Love You. ", But I Can't Help It.
Hey readers (:
Saturday i worked mascoting with JR, so glad he didnt bail out. In fact, i love working mascot with hym way more than with Melvyn! Hes sucha a happy-go-lucky person, & eventhough he is pretty annoying & irritating with hys child like behaviour, he still manages to cheer me up even when i have my moodswings that day. Haha! I cannot wait to partner with hym for mascot on Christmas Day again! Hehe. After work that day, i went to meet BbyAmira, together with BbyAyin. The three of us went to KFC & had our dinner, afterwhich we all went home. Yesterday, work was torturing. The weather was simply killing me, burning my eyes & skin away. I already didnt sleep well on Saturday night, & so, my eyes were hurting at work yesterday. I was squinting my eyes throughout my work, & i was really tired & bored to death man :D What was worse was that, some customers just get on my nerves, but i still have to be all friendly & speak politely towards them, lest they go make some petty complaints, pffft. After work, i wnt off to shower & i walked home alone (: Today, i would be going out with my Aunt, Cuzzies & younger brother, Darren, for lunch & bowling at about 1pm or so like that. Currently waiting for Darren to come home from hys soccer training, then would go bathe & get ready. Oh yah, during work yesterday, suddenly i have some rash thing going on, on my upper arms. It itches man, but i am trying my best to not to scratch it because i dont want it to get worse. I worked for foam pit yesterday, i am not sure what caused the rash, the scorching weather or the foam? :DD Doesnt matter. My Aunt brought me to see a skin specialist, i have to attend another appointment tomorrow, if i'm not mistaken. I didnt manage to attend the B girls friendly match just now, because of my appoinment. I really miss them so much ): DAMN, i am so disheartened that i have to leave the team youknow. Argh. Thinking about it will ruin my mood lah, sighh. Nevermind, this is life :D Anyway, i gotta go bathe already, before Darren gets home. Till here then, ciaozxs ~
I am pretty much confused, why you can be extremely sweet yet nice yet gentle towards me, & you would be the best boyf i would wish for. However, you can have an extremely mean yet heck care yet atrocious attitude towards me, like the very next minute.. Which would scare the hell out of me & make my inner feelings crumble & all i could do is sit silently on my bed, & cry cry cry till my eyes turn puffy & swollen, which would then satisfy my hatred feeling. & instead of hating you, i hate myself even more than words can ever describe.
Screw everything kay. on Sunday, December 20, 2009, 11:33 AM
It feels good to hear someone say : "Takecare."But it feels so much better to hear someone to say : "I Will Takecare Of You."
Hello Readers, I am gonna do a short post. Gotta go get prepared for work already. I didn't managed to sleep well last night, & I am so tired now. Yeahs, serve me right. Pffft, whatever. I couldn't sleep because i was simply too paranoid & too sensitive. I kept thinking too much negative stuff, & i end up making myself cry like some stupid bitch. Yeahs, i am pretty much used to it, so screw it. Been having like sleepless nights, & onlyy turn in till about 1am or 2am. Yeahs, i am pretty much nuts. Its best i occupy my mind with work & friends, so as to prevent myself from suffering. -.- I don't understand lots of things, i really don't. I don't deserve all this bullshit too, i really don't. I don't want to cry, I just want to be happy. Fuck, i hate this so much. I know, my suffering cannot be compared to some others, but atleast i understand what it feels like. Things changes, people change too. I have to endure & adapt huh? Hah, am doing my best lorr. Patience is a virtue mahh. Pffft, screw it lah eyh. Saper surohh aku sayangkan kau sangat, macam gyler babi. Pffft. Kay lah, i am done here. Tomorrow, i would prolly be going to the B girls friendly match against Meridian JC, so i doubt i will be posting. Till here, ciaozxs ~
Ciaozxs ~ on Saturday, December 19, 2009, 10:55 AM
Take Me Away With You, No Matter Where You Want To Go To..Hey Readers (:
Yesterday, i managed to buy new black pumps at this shop called Shine, at Century Square. It is really very nice & comfortable to wear, & it costs 20bucks. Actually, i wanted to get one from Cotton On but i was too eager, so yeahs. When Tassya, her boyf & i went to Cotton On, do youknow how much the pumps cost? 15bucks! Damn, i could have bought it from there, can save $5, but nevermind, i already bought it from Shine. :DD Oh well.. Anyway, after getting my pumps, we headed to someplace near Love's house youknow. A place where the couple called it, Court Cheong or somethingg. Hahaha. After slacking there for like few hours, we headed to Ehub. At about 8pm, we all went home. Reached home, bathed, did the dishes & rested & watched tv. Hahaha. Was really tired, so i slept at about 10pm plus. Today, i will be starting work at 2pm. Will be partnering with JR, hopefully he doesnt bail out in the last minute :D Oh yah! My soccer girls received their N level results yesterday, & i am glad to say i am sincerely proud of them! I am so darn happy that the 4 bestfriends managed to get promoted, i do hope Era & Addiie change their minds about going to higher nitec & go up to Sec5 instead, to play another year of soccer ;D Although Teeny didnt did well, i am still proud of her, especially with her decision that she made about retaining. Atleast, she knows what she wants & shes persistent on taking her O's. And, she can play another year of soccer too ;D For Haf, i do know she did her best & i am just as proud of her, i just wish she would make right decisions in the future (: Well, i wanna go get prepare for work, till here then, ciaozxs ~
fuck i hate it. on Friday, December 18, 2009, 11:58 AM
Even When I Annoy You, Angers You, Gets On Your Nerves & When I'm Imperfect.Hi Readers. Apologies but i am moodless to update today. Will be going out with Tassya & her boyf later. I dont think i will be posting the next 2 days, will be starting work at 2pm like that. Perhaps short posts, i will see how kay. Oh yah, goodluck to the N level students, have faith & think positive kay. Especially to my soccer girls, Carya ; Azima ; Era ; Addiie & Nieza. Remember to update me yeahs (: Miss you girls damn much. Well, i wanna have my lunch & start preparing to meet my bestf later, till here then, ciaozxs ~
Maybe you ain't committed, so now what!?
die die die. on Thursday, December 17, 2009, 5:59 PM
YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.HOT VIDEO! on , 12:13 PM
This video is HOT HOT HOT ( Beyonce onlyy though :D )
Thanks BbyWatie, for helping me upload this video, Loveyou!
HELLO READERS (:
Today i have no plans at all. WIll not be going out or anything. Just staying home,
& rot all day :D However, i am going out with Tassya tomorrow. Shes following me
to get my Cotton On Black Pumps. Need to use it for work, so get a comfy one better
I cannot afford to have blisters :D &&. i am working this weekend again. On the 25th,
which is also Christmas Day, i am requested to work as well. Why? Because my
Santarina poster together with my Elf partner is already outside the entrance of WWW,
therefore the real Santarina must turn up, not another replacement :D Hopefully the
weather then is cooling not hot like at the Sahara Desert man. Oh yah, i received the
Eagles Award, i texted Mrs Goh, asking her if she was the one who voted for me, but
apparently, it wasn't her but Mr Millath. :D Thanks Mr Millath! Hahaha. This Award,
i will be receiving $200 voucher or cash, i am not sure yet. I must go to school on
January 2010 to claim it up on stage, if i'm not mistaken. Or, i can go to school after 28
December & claim it from the General Office, hahaha. Can't wait to receive my award.
Hopefully its cash, not some voucher -.- Plus, i havent received my share of the SP's
winning cash. That day, all of my SP's teammates went to claim it, but i couldn't as i
was working. Hahaha. I really want to claim it soon though, i don't want my Dad to
assume that the Club is a cheat or whatever -.- Pffft, moron. I cannot wait to get my
pay in January too, i think i would get A LOT, since i work Mascot mahh. & it is $10 an
hour, so duhh, i must get lots & lots of $$$$$ ! :DD After getting my pay & all, must go
out with my 6 Lovely Ladies, kaykay?? I MISS YOU ALL SO DEARLY & BADLY LAH ):
Remember, we planned to go WWW kanns? I dont think BbyWatie & BbyYanaa knows
about the plan though. Hehs. Its alright, will update you girls yeahs? (: BbyAyin, BbyMira
& i have promised to pay for those who doesnt have a job, because none of us girls must
be excluded from any outing that we planned eyh :D Anyway, i guess i am done here,
i wanna go play my fb games ( as usual -.- ) now, till here then, ciaozsx ~
2009 coming to an end. on Wednesday, December 16, 2009, 11:34 AM
Love Never Says, " I Have Done Enough."HEYYYYYYYYYYYY HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO :D
Yesterday i had an enjoyable tyme with my Aunt & cuzzies. Plus, i ate tons of snacks/junk food! Hahaha. After swimming with them, went over to my Grams place to have lunch & rested till about 3pm. Afterwhich, i went shopping with my Aunt & Cuzzie Gwen (: Went to Parkway Parade. Aunt bought me a new purple purse ^^ Shes always spoiling me, & i love herrrrrrr ;) Aunt bought my cuzzie a black sweater. After roaming around, Aunt bought Famous Amos cookies & ice cream for us to munch on. Goodness, i am madly in love with the Famouse Amos cookies, i swear to goddddddd. *licks lips* Hahaha! After sucha a longg tyme, i get to eat my Green Tea ice cream, hehs. Been so long since i last ate ice cream youknow. :D Then, at about 5pm or so, we drove back to Grams place. Had dinner there, & my Brother & i left for home at about 7:45pm. Reached home, showered, watch tv for awhile & off to bed. Wasn't feeling that well, perhaps i was tiredd :D &&, next week, my Aunt will be taking me to the polyclinic, & asked to be referred to a skin specialist. Most of my close friends knows about my skin allergies, Aunt said it is quite serious so i need to see a specialist, pronto :D Gosh, & next Friday is Christmas already! So faaaaaaaaaaast. My goodness, i havent worked enough & earned enough $$ yet, hahaha! Oh well, 2009 is coming to an end soon & will have to welcome 2010 by then. Okay, i am done for now, wanna play my fb games before going down to buy lunch. Till here then, ciaozsx ~
disappear. on Monday, December 14, 2009, 3:38 PM
Lonely, Boredd, Depressed, Sadd, Stressed, Alone, Moodless, Restless, Listless.You Simply Have NO Tyme For Me, Not At All. No More Sparing A Thought For Me.
You Here With Me? Nopes, I Doubt So, Never I Suppose? I Am Constantly Giving In,
Constantly Controlling My Temper Because I'm Afraid Of Making You Angry/Annoyed.
I Am Being Extremely Patient, Am Always Sparing A Thought For You, Always
Doing My Very Best To Understand You & Not Make You Worry. Why? Theres Only
One Reason & That Is I Love You More Than Any Other Things In This World.
You Wanna Ill Treat Me, Be Mean To Me? Sigh, Fine. I Will Just Grit My Teeth &
Clench My Fist & Go Through It All. Happy Now? ThankYou Though,
For Trusting Me, Bit By Bit. Hopefully, It Builds Up, [':
MOODLESS kay. on , 12:40 PM
I WANT THE OLD YOU BACK, PRONTO.Sorry readers, i have no mood to post today. I would not be doing anything today either, will be staying home, using the comp & rot all day. Love will be going to Malaysia at 2pm with hys colleagues. For what? To go eat. -.- Hahaha, weird. Atleast he would be back, soon. I wanna go downstairs to buy food, after that i will be back to playing my comp. So, till here then, ciao ~
p.s /- LADIES, I MISS YOU ALL VERY MUCH )': B GIRLS, I MISS YOU ALL VERY BADLY TOO D': I LOVE YOU GIRLS, LOADZSX!
Where Are You? ): on Sunday, December 13, 2009, 5:51 PM
Being in love with someone isn't always going to be easy.It is often filled with anger & tears, together with happiness too.
It is when you want to be together despite it all,
that is what true love really is. I Miss You, A.F <3
work with bestf :D on , 11:43 AM
Somehow, i fucking wish i could be the one that Robert Pattinson a.k.a Edward Cullenis holding on to & hugging me instead of Kristen Stewart a.k.a Bella Swan. :D I don't
care what other people may think about hym, hys the most wanted & gorgeous
celebrity & vampire i have ever seen. I am always on Team Edward kay, Girls? (:
HELLLLLLLLLLOOOOOOOOOOOO (:
Lets talk about yesterday shall we? :D Yesterday, at 12:15pm, i left my place and walked to downtown bus stop to meet my bestf, Fazli. And wow, hes earlier than me, by a minute -.- Hahaha. Went off to smoke first, then headed to Cheers to get drinks for ourselves. Hys girlf ( you know who you are :D ) wants me to take good care of hym, make sure he eats & drinks well, & makes sure he doesnt washes hys eyes, since Wild Wild Wet has lots of hot girls around in their swim wear all :D Therefore, i really made sure i did hys girlf the favor by doing what she wants me to (: After getting our drinks, i brought hym to report for work. My supervisor, Alvin brief hym about what hys job is gonna be while i went to get hys uniform for hym. Fazli went to try it on. He was so lost, everywhere i went, he followed. :D Then, there was a buffet outside the ACC office, he wanted to eat so i accompanied hym. After eating, he went off with the rest of my colleagues to start hys work. Me? I sat at ACC office for 30mins, waiting for my another Supervisor, Shida to come. At 2pm, she finally arrived :D She helped fix the Santarina Costume, afterwhich, i went to put it on. She helped me put on my make up, then i was left to wait for my partner, JR to come. At 2:45pm, he still did not turn up, so Alvin called hym. There was no answer. -.- My previous mascot partner, Melvyn, then called Alvin up and told hym that JR couln't make it as he was down with food poisoning. Sway right!? Argh. So coincidental lah. Damn, I was so pissed, because i ended up doing mascot duty, ALONE. Argh. My first half, i went over to Escape. There weren't much people there, but i managed to give out the candies anyway. At 4:15pm, i headed back to WWW. Had my break where i went off to smoke. 5pm, i carried on my duty at WWW. However, the tip of my pumps came off. How sway lah! Damn youknow. I was requested by my senior, Zuhaila, to use Nisa's pumps which can be found at the ACC's female washroom. Thus, i carried on my duty in her pumps :D At 6:15pm, i ended work, showered, changed and did volunteer work till 9pm or so. Afterwhich , i went home. Washed up and off to dreamland. Was super tired lor, since i didnt sleep well the night before. Today, i am not working! Hahaha, thank goodness. I would be staying home the entire day because i am too tired and lazy to get out of my house. Besides, i doubt my parents allow me to go out on a Sunday -.- Hahaha. So, i would spend my tyme playing the comp and later, perhaps playing with my psp :D Oh yah, know what? I cannot wait for my Mum to help me dye my hair. Highlight also can! :DD She bleached & dyed my older Brother's hair & it was so gorgeous ( the hair, i mean :D )! REALLY! I cannot explain what color it is, but it is not the common or expected color which you can spot on the streets :D Anyway, i wanna carry on with my fb games before having my lunch, till here then, ciao ~
tiredddddddd D': on Saturday, December 12, 2009, 11:24 AM
Life is tiring. & I'm super tired. Didnt sleep well last night, couldn't sleep. Was busy crying the whole night. Yeahs, crying. Won't mentioned the cause of it, onlyy someone in particular knows & i am not going to talk about it lest it makes me paranoid & oversensitive again. Anyway, i am going to work later but an hour earlier than my reporting tyme because i need to accompany Fazli to work, don't want hym to get lost or be late for work since its hys first day. :D Haziz is already at work with Zamir, can't wait to see hows he doing. I should have slept knowing i have work today. However, i swear i couldn't sleep & now i have to blame myself for being so tired, damn. Arghh. I cried for some tyme, then tried to sleep. Then after awhile, woke up then cry agan -.- And it keeps repeatingg lah. Yeahs, i'm a pathetic cry baby. People thinks i'm strong emotionally, well i am not what you people think i am. I have a fragile side too kay :D Fuck, annoying lah, i know. Anyway, i am currently waiting for Fazli to meet me. Wonder if hes awake or not.. Hmmm. What a pig. Well, i wanna play my fb games now before meeting that dork. Plus, i miss love, sighh. Till here, ciao ~degil pulakk. on Friday, December 11, 2009, 11:36 AM
You Are Still The One I Love, Want, Need & Miss.today's horoscope : Don't let negative thinking get you down -- criticism for its own sake is a waste of time. Lack of confidence can slow you down, so believe in yourself even when others don't. Stay on course with your goals through the currents of self-doubt and ignore the sometimes jealous remarks of others who would see you give up. Your generosity is called into play again, Leo. The natural warmth and willingness to help that you posses can be put to good use today and the best thing is that fun is involved. Relationship energy is also excellent, and communication with a partner or potential partner could get results beyond what you imagine. It would be a good idea to plan for a social event this evening, or at least to go out somewhere, because the planetary patterns are highly in favor of your doing so. Touch base with someone who cannot enjoy the day with you. Overbearing people think they are flattering you. Kindly inform them they are not. If you are single, a new person could drop into your life today. Just be aware that this dramatic, somewhat eccentric character may not stick around for long. If you are not single, you could have some interesting and unexpected challenges from your partner today.
You meet people now who are considerate, understanding and nonjudgmental. You are also likely to form relationships with people based on a deep level of mutual appreciation and understanding for each other. You are in touch with your more sensitive, spiritual qualities, and you are able to express a greater level of sensitivity and greater empathy than usual. If you feel like saying the word "woo hoo" in this period of romance, Leo, then the stars are working to your advantage. Whether you are single or attached, this is a time where you are feeling the need to experiment and learn or try something new with someone you enjoy being with. You will also find in this time frame that any ideas that are presented to you that seem off the wall or original will excite you. Any person that brings you a different way of looking at things will be the kind of person that you want to spend some time with. Your fiery side is definitely being ignited right now, and in all of the right ways. Don't question it, just enjoy it.
HELLO READERS (:
Today i will be staying home the entire day. Need to rest because i'm working tomorrow :D I'm so worried about Love, he works so much & perhaps, too much, he gets tired out easily & i can tell hes getting weaker as days passed. Sooner or later, i'm afraid he will fall really ill. All hes been telling me is hes tired, hes having headache ...etc. How can i not worry? He keeps telling me no worry. -.- Tell me that if onlyy i'm not your girlf, Love. Hmmm. Besides getting all worn out, hes still forcing hymself to hold on, & he still wants to run like he normally does. -.- I hate it when he keeps getting tired because i will feel neglected, still, i did my best to understand & give in to hym because i don't want to end up making hym mad or worry about me ): Sighh. I am being extremely patient & nice already, hehe. Besides all this, he still doesnt want to listen to me, so stubborn. He knows hes tired & all, he still insist on going out. Well, what am i suppose to do rather than just give in to hym right? If he doesnt want to listen to me, then so be it lor. :D I still love & care for hym, as usual anyway. Hahaha. I wanna play my fb games now, till here then, ciao ~
forgive & forget. on Thursday, December 10, 2009, 12:52 PM
HELLO READERS :DMet up with Tassya just now. She came to my block. Told her not to bring her boyf Rais & her adekk along, but, they both came anyway -.- Well, it really was pretty awkward. I don't think im in good terms with her boyf, but now i suppose its slightly better. Although i didnt really talk to hym, i just felt alright being around them :D Besides, her adekk was around, thus i didnt feel that i was being a 'lamp post' between them, hehehe. Anyway, they met up under my block, thought wanna smoke but there was police around. Yeahs, spoiler eyh :D So, we smoked while walking towards Ehub. The two dorks wanted to play pool, so we went to Funky Balls & they paid for their pool game, and Tassya & i just sat aside, watching them for an hour -.- Afterwhich, we smoked again while walking to town park. Slacked there for awhile and we headed to Whitesands to use the toilet :D Bumped into Amira B, chatted for awhile then went to slacked at library. After that, we walked to my place and i went home while they went somewhere else. Reached home, showered then did some chores. I really hope to be back in good terms with Tassya. Gotta admit, i miss those tymes :D Although what she did tore my heart into a million pieces because i honestly felt she betrayed & backstabbed me, still, somehow, the feeling of bestfriends still lingers around. (: So yeahs, we are gonna be back like before. I am so used to her, i still share everything with her. How can we not get back together right? :D Okay, im done here, will update tomorrow again, ciao ~
Just right (: on Wednesday, December 9, 2009, 6:38 PM
I never knew I could feel so much pain, and yet be so in love with the person causing it. Still, just don't ever let me go. I love you, A.F <3
Miss you )': on , 12:08 PM
If i could just have one wish, i would wish to wake up everydayto the sound of your breath on my neck, the warmth of your lips
on my cheeks, the touch of your fingers on my skin, and
the feel of your heart beating with mine. Knowing that i could
never find that feeling with anyone else other than you makes me
realize how much you mean & how important you are to me.
I MISS YOU SO MUCH, LOVE )':
HELLO READERS.
I am really bored now & i swear i am so effing annoyed and dissatisfied with the Singapore Idol results last night. SERIOUSLY, TABBY SHOULD HAVE MADE IT TO THE FINALS! Although i support all three contestants, i strongly feel that Tabby is cut out for the music industry and she should be the winning idol. Are you voters stupid/dumb/idiot/retarded or WHAAT!? Never hear what Ken said? From what he said, i can tell that he thinks that Tabby is fantastic enough to be the winner! And C'mon, shes onlyy 17! You voters sure are mean to destroy a young 17 year old girls biggest dream! Argh, dammit. I did my part ofcourse, by supporting her, i called her hotline, thrice kay! Atleast, i truly root for her, not like you dumbass who support the other two just because everyone else is rooting for them. Yeahs, i admit i know that Tabby does not have as much fan base as Sylvia's & Sezairi's, but are you for real that you cannot tell who truly has the talents & has the 'S' factor!? Goodness, sometymes i feel that Singaporeans are really so effing typical and kiasu, though i am part of it too. Pffft, what a shame. Whatever, its over already anyway. Seeing Tabby cried last night, made me sympathize her which made me despise those voters who do not know how to VOTE. !@#$%^%$&&$*^#@-$ I didnt think Sylvia & Sezairi has a voice that is as powerful as Tabby's. I didnt think Sylvia is as gorgeous as Tabby. I didnt think Sezairi has the 'S' factor, unlike Tabby. There are SO MANY reasons why Tabby should have gone through to the final 2 youknow! Argh, gosh im raging with anger! Nevermind, i am really controlling already. Anyway i am not going out today, doing nothing much. Will just be staying home, and practically do nothing :D Chores are all done. My adekk wants to use the comp at 2pm, so i prolly will be playing with my psp later all the way till dinner tyme. Im working this Saturday, but thankfully not on Sunday. Fazli, my bestf, is also working too (: So is Haziz who is working with Zamir. Hehehe. First tyme they work, so can disturb lor! :D Well, i wanna play my fb games now. Till here then, ciao ~
top 3 (: on Tuesday, December 8, 2009, 12:04 PM
Someone asked me, "Do you know where heaven is?".I replied softly, "Right between his arms..".
today's horoscope : Wahoo.....you're in the mood to experiment and to learn something new. Off the wall or original ideas excite you and you will seek people who can offer you a different way of looking at things. You may want a break from the predictability of your usual routine and methods. Friends and younger people could drag on your resources today, Leo, but it does look like you have them in mind in all this. Don't be too extravagant in your spending today, in fact, today is beneficial for updating or revising your budget. Don't lose sight of your financial targets, and keep any kind of speculative activity, or buying and selling, at a minimum. Also, this week may not be very favorable for entertaining, unless you were born between the 1st and 10th of August. Caution regarding finances is the keyword today. You will be tempted to bully a friend into doing things your way, and while you can almost always get away with murder that way, not today. You'll find that your "take charge" persona works against you. Compromise is the key. Patience will bring great rewards. Get into a deep conversation with someone who needs some good, sound advice today.
This is a time you could be more distressed than usual over any dissonance in your environment or personal relationships, and you are inclined to avoid serious discussions or real disagreements with others. Also, challenging mental work and concentration is difficult for you now. Take a step back if possible and realize tomorrow will be here soon enough.
Hello readers. I would be staying home all day today, because i am simply too lazy to go out, since i went out yesterday already anyway. I didnt meet up with Arthur, i smsed hym, he didnt reply me at all -.- Must be sleeping away, what a pig! :D On the other hand, i went to meet Love instead (: Love picked me up & drove us to somewhere which you readers need not know, :D Although i spent about 1hr30mins with hym onlyy, its better than not seeing hym at all & i am happy enough. He had to leave early because hys parents wanna use the car, so sadd ): Love, get your van fixed asap. We have unfinished business to do, you know i know eyh, hehe :D Well, today is the top 3 for the Singapore Idols, i have been rooting for all 3 of the current top contestants all along since the beginning, now i am so glad & relieved they are all in the top 3, however, i am in a dilemma because i know i can onlyy support and root for one particular one, but i do not know who to choose and root for hym/her.. :DD Hmmm, i suppose i want to root for Tabby (: Shs onlyy 17 youknow, my age siaa! Shes so gorgeous and she sings really very superbly well ! Sezairi, on the other hand, is the cute and hot original coolio, but i gotta admit, hys voice isn't as powerful as Tabby's leyh.. For Sylvia, hmm.. Shes always dressing up very sexily yet shes so damn beautiful, and her voice is quite fantastic as well. So you see, i am really in a dilemma. :D Well, i think i will decide, soon though. I have finished reading my novel, The Chocolate Run, now i am moving on to another novel, Secrets & Liars. :D Yeahs, i am a novel lover ( wth!? :D ). Well, i wanna play my fb games before having my lunch, till here then, ciao ~
fuck cryinggggg. on Monday, December 7, 2009, 2:14 PM
got this from Feefit's blog :
Girl: Your new girlfriend is pretty. (I bet she stole your heart)
Boy: Yeah, she is. (But you’re still the most beautiful girl I know)
Girl: I heard she’s funny and amazing. (All the stuff I wasn’t)
Boy: She sure is. (But she’s nothing compared to you)
Girl: I bet you know everything about her by now. (Like how you knew just about everything about me)
Boy: Only the stuff that counts. (I can’t even remember the stuff she tells me when I think of you)
Girl: Well, I hope you guys last. (Because we never did)
Boy: I hope we do too. (Whatever happened to me & you?)
Girl: Well I got to go. (Before I start to cry)
Boy: Yeah me too. (I hope you don’t cry)
Girl: Bye. (I still love you)
Boy: Later. (I never stopped)
