Lost on Tuesday, November 17, 2009, 11:48 AM
Woke up this morning & i felt i had no reason to get up. I felt so uneasy& lost without you. I have lost one of the most important person in my life
& hes never returning back. I SCREWED UP, BIG TYME. Theres no turning
back neither is there any hope already, because no matter how hard i tried to
get back, no matter how badly i need you in my life, your heart&soul, & most
importantly, your trust, will never be regained back. Even if there is hope,
it will never be the same again. I fooled around, & i know you will get back
at me because you mean what you say, i know you too well. I believe i
deserved this & earning your trust back would take forever, just like how
you tried to earn my trust back before, we are exactly the same. I guess there
is only one option left, & that is to leave you alone. You no longer love me,
you no longer need me, you no longer want me, & you no longer have faith
& trust in me. Well, i guess, i have to live with no you from now onwards.
My heart had to tear apart when you said those 5 words, but i really hate
it that this has to be the ending. I do not see why we cannot talk things out
politely & nicely & settled everything. Its extremely difficult to leave,
emotionally, but i have no other choice, i deserved it,
so i have to live with it.
THE END.
