Hello! Today was quite a moody day for me. Went to school by taxi, cause i think i woke up slightly later than usual. :D Reached school, then reported for TAF duty. After which, had one period of Math. Was chatting with Amirah Syg all the way, about some private stuffs between us. Heh. Then, had PE. 2.4 test. -.- Gosh, i jogged all the way, stopping a few times cause my stomach hurts a little, but, i wasn't that tired as last week's practice. Heh. Well, i passed, 13.45sec, & i got A uh. Heh. Proud uh, cause besides, i beat Kenny! Hah. By 5secs only, but at least im fitter than hym!
Hah. Malcolm kept disturbing hym uh, saying that he brought disgrace to the guys, cause I beat hym. -.- Mal, stop bringing his confidence down lahh, so evil seyh. Heh. I was really happy, cause i need not retest again next week. I think all the girls passed their 2.4 test uh, so good job girls! Heh. &&, i was very impressed with Fad! Gosh, he managed to get 8min plus for his 2.4! Amazed right..? Hah. Well, i know hes fit uh. Hah. After PE, everyone was like so tired. Hah. I know, i was too anyway. So, i went for Art, gossiped with Amirah Syg, & did very little work. Hah. Then, recess. Ate a little only. After which was Social Studies, didn't really paid much attention, was busy texting Bby. Heh! After which was Chem, i just copied notes from Fad. Thanks dude. (: Then, it was English. Did some work, after that left for break, then back to Art extra lessons. Hmmm, didn't really did much either, was busy chatting with Malcolm. Hes funny lahh, wahlau. Hah. After that, i went for my training. I screwed up during training, wasn't really in a good mood & coach kept picking on me. Pffft~ Cant you just keep your comments to yourself..? Nobody will say you're a mute if you keep silent you know. Argh. After training, went home with Radd & Ain. Radd planned to go to school with me tomorrw! Heh, finally! I've been going with Tassya, but i miss going with Radd, so i agreed with her. Heh. I need some tyme off from Tassya too, occasionally. Hmmm, well, theres nothing much tomorrow i think. On Friday, there might be a match cause we're not sure whether we've qualified to the semi-finals or not. Hmmm. Will, till here then, toodles ~
Tassya ; I hope you'll read this eventually. Hmmm. I understand it's really difficult for you to move on after the biggest heartbreak you've got, but, you have to try to move on. I always say, "Go get a life!" Right..? So yah, i wanna tell you the same too. Ever since the break up, you've been very clingy towards me. I know cause i'm lyke the only friend you can turn to & count on, but, you need to give me some space too, you know..? I'll suffocate if we're always together. I'm a human, i need freedom too. I know, you'll tend to feel alone cause you're so used to having someone whose always there for you.. Well, now, face the fact, you don't have hym anymore! So what, now you're sticking so much to me..? Babe, its not like i'm your only friend you know, you still do have other friends you can turn to.. You've changed, you're not as independant as before, you can't seem to make up yor mind, you can't seem to decide what exactly you want. I know, now its quite difficult for you, but you gotta try harder! You're not putting enough effort to let go of the past. I dislike looking back to the past, you should know that. I already told you, if you want to lead a carefree life, then you have to decide how to, i can't decide for you, can i? I know, bestfriends do everything together, & will stand by each other too as well. I have been doing that, i have been helping you to move on, but i'll get tired if i never see you putting in much effort to change. You seem to let your past take control of you, i also know he used to be your entire world. Well, face it, hes not anymore. I know, i may seem harsh & blunt, but i want you to realize, that you're not the Tassya i once knew. Sigh. Don't let love take over your mind, your soul, your everything. I want you to be happy, i want to you to be like before. I want the old Tassya back. You must be honest with me, dont' keep anything from me. I know sometimes i scold you which might be quite harsh, but its for your own good. I mean, i don't want to see you suffer you know. Everyone's saying you've changed, don't ask me who say cause i'm not gonna tell who yah. :D People are also telling me that they sympathize with me cause i have to go through what you feel as well, you're like dragging me into your life, now that hes gone, you stick with me like glue. -.- Babe, i want my freedom you know. I'm not saying i mind entirely, but you have to learn to be independant, i want you to try to do things on your own. Its not a big deal to be alone right..? Please, i hope whatever i say make sense to you. Don't give attitude or whatsoever kay, you know i can't stand that. & don't get people to sympathize you as well, people might dislike that. I don't want to teach you how to lead your life my dear girl, its your life, please decide yourself wisely. I've said what i want to say, i hope you'll understand. I'm not mad at you or anything too kay.
I'm missing Bby,
very very much! ):
I love you B! :D
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